Paper Pregnancy

Hi Sweet Girl,

Missing you so much today especially, but everyday. It was so sunny here today, about 70 degrees and full of sunlight. Your Dad and I went to the doctors office today for a checkup to make sure we are healthy enough to take care of you and have enough energy while you run and play. Luckily we passed and it was so worth it.

It's so strange to me that the only thing keeping us apart is time. Time spent waiting for our home study. Time spent waiting for the fingerprints to come back. Time spent waiting to find you; wherever you are.  In that time, we are left dreaming about you, missing you terribly and loving you unconditionally.

We spent the day outside; gardening, planting and playing with the pups. We wondered what you will love doing in your days with us. Would you rather we set up the corner of your room with a play kitchen, dress up area or reading nook? We know whatever you love, we will love because we love you. Will our clingy bulldog become as attached to you as he does me? Will he sleep with you every night and keep you comforted if you have bad dreams?

We know you will fit perfectly into our lives because God planned all of this and you are made fearfully and wonderfully; through Him. In my daily prayers, I am reminded to be patient and that you are being protected.

I see so many parents out in the world who treat their children like such a burden. Like they are interrupting their lives and can't wait for an "escape".  I know having kids must be stressful at times, but I wish I could shake those parents and remind them how unbelievably lucky they are to have had this child and be lucky enough to be their parent. When people hear we are adopting, whether unspoken or not, they assume we must be adopting because we aren't able to have our "own" children. We aren't bringing children into this world because we know you are out there and you are meant to be ours. You are our own child, please never ever let anyone tell you or make you think anyone different.

I love you, forever and always my sweet love. We can't wait to meet you.

Xoxo,

Mama