Hello love,
We just got our final copy of our homestudy! This is a huge step in getting to meet you and although we are growing impatient, the light is getting closer and we know how overwhelmingly worth it this all is.
Our homestudy makes us out to be these perfect people. This perfect family who you are supposed to fit perfectly into. Are we perfect? Absolutely not. But are we perfect for each other? Absolutely.
We know our homestudy may not describe exactly who we are and we have far more faults than that are listed, but what we do know is that our love for you is depicted perfectly and the most important thing? God knows our hearts and your heart better than any piece of paper or meeting can do. I know that He will put us together because we are meant to be. Not because someone chose us out of a stack of papers because of our home decor style, dogs or love for adventure, but the most important thing which is our love for you.
Each passing day and each step closer brings us closer, but even though I feel we are getting closer, the waiting and passing of time gets harder and harder. Knowing we can take you home with us now, but we just don't know how or where to find you or what your name is breaks our hearts. For whatever reason, we are not quite ready for each other yet. I pray every single day as hard as I can that we will be united. That I will get a sign of where to find you. Of what your name is. Of what website you're on. I'm still waiting and praying, but I have so much faith you're out there and when the time is right we will be together. I pray that day comes soon.
I love you and can't wait to meet you and hold you
Mama
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
Dad
Hi Princess,
I wanted to write you about your Dad and how much he loves you already. When your Dad and I first started dating, I knew I would marry him and he would be the love of my life and father of my children one day when we were talking on the phone. We lived 45 minutes apart from each other so we would talk every night for hours on the phone. We would talk about just about everything under the sun. From our day, our work lives, our family and friends, our faith and religion, etc. No matter how long we talked or how often we talked, we would never run out of things to say or topics to talk about. I remember one night, a few months into us dating pretty seriously the topic of kids was brought up. I have always known I wanted 2 kids and either two daughters or a daughter and a son, but I knew for sure I wanted kids through adoption. This is something we hadn't talked about before and I remember being so nervous to bring it up. When I did, he told me something I had never expected to hear...he wanted to adopt too.
He started talking about his daughter and how much he knows he will connect with you and love you. He told me he knew you would be a daddy's girl and he was terrified for when you started dating, when you got your heart broken and the day he's give you away when you got married. At this point in our relationship, we didn't know we'd be together and we didn't know you yet, yet we did. We knew our hearts and we knew you were out there waiting for us.
Your Dad may not be perfect in many different ways, just like me, but your Dad and I both love you so unconditionally. We chose you and we always will choose you.
Sweet dreams my sweet girl.
Mama
I wanted to write you about your Dad and how much he loves you already. When your Dad and I first started dating, I knew I would marry him and he would be the love of my life and father of my children one day when we were talking on the phone. We lived 45 minutes apart from each other so we would talk every night for hours on the phone. We would talk about just about everything under the sun. From our day, our work lives, our family and friends, our faith and religion, etc. No matter how long we talked or how often we talked, we would never run out of things to say or topics to talk about. I remember one night, a few months into us dating pretty seriously the topic of kids was brought up. I have always known I wanted 2 kids and either two daughters or a daughter and a son, but I knew for sure I wanted kids through adoption. This is something we hadn't talked about before and I remember being so nervous to bring it up. When I did, he told me something I had never expected to hear...he wanted to adopt too.
He started talking about his daughter and how much he knows he will connect with you and love you. He told me he knew you would be a daddy's girl and he was terrified for when you started dating, when you got your heart broken and the day he's give you away when you got married. At this point in our relationship, we didn't know we'd be together and we didn't know you yet, yet we did. We knew our hearts and we knew you were out there waiting for us.
Your Dad may not be perfect in many different ways, just like me, but your Dad and I both love you so unconditionally. We chose you and we always will choose you.
Sweet dreams my sweet girl.
Mama
Monday, February 8, 2016
Paper Pregnancy
Hi Sweet Girl,
Missing you so much today especially, but everyday. It was so sunny here today, about 70 degrees and full of sunlight. Your Dad and I went to the doctors office today for a checkup to make sure we are healthy enough to take care of you and have enough energy while you run and play. Luckily we passed and it was so worth it.
It's so strange to me that the only thing keeping us apart is time. Time spent waiting for our home study. Time spent waiting for the fingerprints to come back. Time spent waiting to find you; wherever you are. In that time, we are left dreaming about you, missing you terribly and loving you unconditionally.
We spent the day outside; gardening, planting and playing with the pups. We wondered what you will love doing in your days with us. Would you rather we set up the corner of your room with a play kitchen, dress up area or reading nook? We know whatever you love, we will love because we love you. Will our clingy bulldog become as attached to you as he does me? Will he sleep with you every night and keep you comforted if you have bad dreams?
We know you will fit perfectly into our lives because God planned all of this and you are made fearfully and wonderfully; through Him. In my daily prayers, I am reminded to be patient and that you are being protected.
I see so many parents out in the world who treat their children like such a burden. Like they are interrupting their lives and can't wait for an "escape". I know having kids must be stressful at times, but I wish I could shake those parents and remind them how unbelievably lucky they are to have had this child and be lucky enough to be their parent. When people hear we are adopting, whether unspoken or not, they assume we must be adopting because we aren't able to have our "own" children. We aren't bringing children into this world because we know you are out there and you are meant to be ours. You are our own child, please never ever let anyone tell you or make you think anyone different.
I love you, forever and always my sweet love. We can't wait to meet you.
Xoxo,
Mama
Missing you so much today especially, but everyday. It was so sunny here today, about 70 degrees and full of sunlight. Your Dad and I went to the doctors office today for a checkup to make sure we are healthy enough to take care of you and have enough energy while you run and play. Luckily we passed and it was so worth it.
It's so strange to me that the only thing keeping us apart is time. Time spent waiting for our home study. Time spent waiting for the fingerprints to come back. Time spent waiting to find you; wherever you are. In that time, we are left dreaming about you, missing you terribly and loving you unconditionally.
We spent the day outside; gardening, planting and playing with the pups. We wondered what you will love doing in your days with us. Would you rather we set up the corner of your room with a play kitchen, dress up area or reading nook? We know whatever you love, we will love because we love you. Will our clingy bulldog become as attached to you as he does me? Will he sleep with you every night and keep you comforted if you have bad dreams?
We know you will fit perfectly into our lives because God planned all of this and you are made fearfully and wonderfully; through Him. In my daily prayers, I am reminded to be patient and that you are being protected.
I see so many parents out in the world who treat their children like such a burden. Like they are interrupting their lives and can't wait for an "escape". I know having kids must be stressful at times, but I wish I could shake those parents and remind them how unbelievably lucky they are to have had this child and be lucky enough to be their parent. When people hear we are adopting, whether unspoken or not, they assume we must be adopting because we aren't able to have our "own" children. We aren't bringing children into this world because we know you are out there and you are meant to be ours. You are our own child, please never ever let anyone tell you or make you think anyone different.
I love you, forever and always my sweet love. We can't wait to meet you.
Xoxo,
Mama
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