We're still here

Hi sweet girl,

Since I wrote to you last, so much has changed, yet again. I promise we're only doing all of this transitioning for you, even if it's taking us longer to meet you. Family has always been one of the most important things to me. Family can mean so many different things to many people. Some consider family to only be people who are blood related to them, some don't know or relate to any one who is related by blood, and to your Dad and I, blood relation does not matter. At all.

You are going to meet so many different kids and families and every one of them will look different than ours in some way. Just remember, different does not mean bad. Differences are what makes the world less boring and more fun and loving. Just because we may not be your birth parents, doesn't mean we love you any less than any other kids with their families. We love you just as much, if not more. I know that when we first meet and for months or who knows how long, you will miss what you remember as your family. You will miss your birth parents and your old house and pets and all the great people you had in your life before you came to live with complete strangers in a new house, in a new neighborhood and with a new family. It will always be okay that you miss your family. When God created you, me, Dad, and every person on Earth, He made our hearts big enough to love endless amounts of people, as much as you want, as long as you want.

What that means if just because you've got new parents and a new family and a new home, doesn't mean you can't still love your old house and pets and family, it just means your heart grows to love more people. You will continue to keep loving more and more people in your life for your whole life.

I pray you will always remember this, you will always choose love, you love people who love you exactly as you are back and most importantly, you always remember how much I will always love you. Even when you make a mistake, have troubles with attachment and lash out, say you don't love me....I will ALWAYS love you.

We are working on the process of bringing your home someday, I pray it's someday soon and you are kept loved, safe and protected. I know God has put all these setbacks there for some reason. I trust in Him that we are just not ready to meet right now yet, I trust in His timing, not mine as much as I miss you and wish you were here, but someday soon sweet girl.

P.S. We painted your room today, put your bed and bedding together, but are waiting to decorate it with you. Getting your room ready broke my heart in some ways, knowing I have not clue when you'll be home to sleep in your bed, how old you are, or even what your favorite color is. I promise it will be here ready and waiting for you to come home and play in it and be the missing piece to our family, forever and ever.

I love you so much.

Xoxo,

Mama